Good night.
It seems you’ve had a long day. I wish I could’ve been part of your day. It makes me sad I couldn’t. Go to sleep. I’ll be fine. I didn’t get to chat with you much which makes me sad and just want to hurt myself. I don’t know. I really don’t know. I know I shouldn’t be feeling like this but I do… I just wish inside your heart your felt the same… I’m hoping I don’t have bad luck tomorrow… but I know I probably will… someday let me proclaim you as my princess. I miss you. I love you. What I missed the most was being able to be with you every day. Seeing your face. Being with you. That’s what I missed the most. I want to again be able to do that with you. I don’t know what I’m hoping for. But I know I want you. Let’s make those memories we made once happen again. But this time. Let me make you happier. Let me make you really happy. Those feelings you have for me. Please show them. I want to live my life with you. Let me give you that feeling that made you feel good. I don’t like to be second. Let me be the one at the end of your red string. Good night. I love you and sweet dreams.
Stay Positive
It’s hard to stay positive when you’re on the urge of breaking down and crying. Or when something really bad has happened. or life just doesn’t feel so good anymore… I don’t know how I did it in the past but I must’ve been pretty awesome to stay positive for such a long time. Some days its just hard to get a smile across my face…
Today
Is so hot outside. I was being all positive today waiting for your text but in the end I didn’t get to talk to you much :/ I’m trying my best to stay positive but it’s hard… I hope you have a better day later. guess I’m bad at comforting people. :/ guess I should turn my frown upside down eh? :) need to stay positive…
Hello
Each hello always comes with a goodbye. That’s why you told me never to say hello so we would never have to say goodbye.
leans forward and holds out a hand
“May I have this dance?”
Love or hate?
Love vs hate. Do you just hate me so much that you don’t want to talk to me? Or is it you don’t love me enough? Is it that you don’t want to hurt me? I don’t know. I miss the times we were together. I miss the days we could just chill together. You know what I miss the most? I miss that you were once mine but not anymore. You want to know why I’m clinging so hard? It’s because I thought I found hope to be able to make you love me again. You must hate everything I do. You cuss at me a lot. You never make it seem that I’m important. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Am I just someone that’s an idiot? that’s dipshit? That’s fucking stupid? No. I’m all those and impulsive. You tell me that if I chat with you, you’ll stab me. To be honest, I want you to do that. You could end my misery. If you hate me that much do it. I don’t have anyone who cares about me. I havent cried yet. But I know that tonight I will cry. The reason I cry is because you gave me hope. And then destroyed it yet again. Over time this is just another wedding dress scene. I always wait for your text, but tonight and tomorrow and the next day I will just have a silent phone. I won’t ever have a message on it. I’ve made you hate me now. It’s not okay. But It’s okay… this time you will have really left me all alone. I always wonder whether or not you have feelings for me within that heart. If it ever craves the moments it had with me. But I guess that’s not the case anymore. I love you. And always have. I’m just sad that over all this time. I don’t want to get hurt but I want you. It made me happy when you said that you missed me. It made me happy when you stopped me and did things. I’m very glad you did. It would be nice if you worried for me. And that you would care for me.but I know you don’t give a shit. It just hurts. I’m always so lonely. When I was coming over I biked so hard that I felt I was going to die from over working myself so much. But it makes me sad that all that was worthless. Maybe early tomorrow morning I’ll bike over. I know you won’t want to see me. Everything is just impossible. Impossible for me. You’re the only one who can make me truly happy. Yet you don’t want to. I know you’ll probably not text me. I’m only a pain in the ass. Plus your love for me is less compare to him that’s why you are willing to leave me. Ditch me all in the darkness. I just wish someone would hate me enough to kill me. I have no more luck. I can’t resist anymore. So take my life and end all this. If I continue to live then. I’ll probably be living a horrible life. I want to live a life with you. I remember you told me that you still wanted me in your life. And that without me life isn’t right. It wasn’t just one thing that made me fall back in love with you. It was everything good you said to me. It makes me sad that all that will be gone. I won’t get anymore positive things. I’ll only be a doll that lives for nothing. It’s sad but true. I won’t ever have someone else care about me like you have before. I want you to look back at our chats and tell me how they were . I want to know. Will you chase after me? Will you have enough heart for a place for me? Honestly if you can affect my mood so much there is something about you that is important to me. If you could see me and my tears would you feel something for me? It’s shameful to cry while wearing a tux. But eh. Did you still have feelings for me? If you don’t I’ll just sleep and sleep and sleep and cry the whole time. I’ll be waiting for something that won’t happen. This isn’t the first time I’ve been lonely… but it hurts this time. ive always lived in the quietness but it’s just sad that I would have to be in the quietness again. Those late night conversations we had and those cheerful moments. They all seemed just like yesterday. someday soon show me you love me. Please… look deep within your heart and find the part that I gave you warmth. Look for those memories we had together. And think. Maybe you’ll find out how important I am to you… just maybe…look at those chats we had and remember those memories. And let’s have them all over again. But this time let me make you even more happy. I hope that I can come over sometime without the worry of not being able to come over. I wish things could be like before. 我爱你
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Holding hands may seem like an innocent gesture, but they show more than a simple interlocking of fingers. Your hands are one of the most essential parts of your body: you build with them, feed with them, hold with them, touch with them, fight with them; they are the tools of the human body. To take a hold of another’s hand is to break from living individually. It is to link yourself to another being, to momentarily entwine your life with another’s, to promise, for a moment, that you need not face the world alone. More simple, more aesthetically naive than other forms of affection, i.e kissing, hugging, sexing.., the act of holding hands is often trivialized in its true implications.
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